Thread:3primetime3/@comment-25407271-20150816044033/@comment-17897872-20150816200829

It was really both; I already didn't feel well, especially then, plus they called me down a few minutes later anyways to have dinner. I would have left chat sooner or later anyways. It came to me as a shock when you brought the news to me, and I didn't know how to handle it. Everything's falling apart over here in the U.S. lately, mainly how things are going here, my friends in real life, and my emotional problems to name a few; and with all the jealousy coming from my extended family wanting me to fail hard in the future, I don't know how I've lived this long, trying to push forward and striving to do my best. I need a little time withdrawing from Wikia (which is why I won't log in to chat today) to face my crises and reevaluate where I stand in life. Plus, fresh hell school is coming again (much more stress than usual schools I've been too), and I just might pay someone to run me over as I almost did last year.

I know I'm rambling here and being overdramatic. I'm really sorry if I made you feel bad in any way, these things are something I have to handle myself as I face the bleak future. Just remember, it's ultimately your decision with whatever you want to do. I have no right interfering in your decisions, and I don't wish to.