Thread:Shuddervolt/@comment-25314470-20150814231619

Hey guys, I'm pretty sure you know who I am so no need for an intro.

I'll start this off with, apologising, I was overreacting when I said I was leaving the wiki. Although I knew many who want me to stay, I've pretty much ignored them, I'm sorry. Many problems were occurring for me and it was just too much to handle, please do not ask about these problems as I'd rather not talk about them.

Next, I would like to say what I plan on doing, I am still a moderator of this wiki, so it's best to keep up what I'm doing, but I will keep myself from chat as most, if not all the problems that I've encountered have occurred there. Once again, please do not ask.

Finally, I would like to talk about kind of secrets that I hide from the community, these aren't my biggest fears and what not. I just think that it isn't right to keep these hidden.

1. You see me as a helpful person on the wiki I'm sure, but really, I try to avoid this kind of stuff as much as I can, it's not that I don't want to help, it's that I think I can't and if I do, I'll just ruin everything.

2. My suicide attempts, one of them was fake. I was being selfish and I just wanted attention, get angry at me as much as you wish.

3. More on the selfish side of things......I never want the first chat mod/mod elections to happen. When I got promoted, I felt powerful, unique and that I had worked hard for my spot and when the elections came around. "Why do I have to earn this status when these guys get it handed them when they've done nothing?!" Is what I would think. It's quite obvious that I was very wrong and I'm terribly sorry for my horrible thoughts.

4. I don't really know if this is a confession or not, but I have some serious trust issues on the wiki. It's nothing personal or anything, it's mainly because that I've recently watched these presentations on online safety and stuff and it's pretty much brainwashed me into thinking that no one is who they claim to be. I do trust certain people more than others since they reveal certain things to me, one of which I've had a face-to-face conversation over Skype who I trust fully now.

5. Whenever someone does something bad or stuffs up at some point, that's the only way I can think of them. In simpler terms, I can only think of a person in the worst way possible. It's horrible, I wish I couldn't do it, but it's something that just happens.

I'm sorry for all these terrible things, I really am, which brings me to the brighter side of things. These things I just have to say whether you know them or not.

1. I love your compliments about me, you have no idea how amazing I feel after reading one. I visit the voting room here everyday just to see what people say about me if they nominate me, it's a real confidence booster.

2. I really do love this community, I brag about this community IRL, even though people tell me I should get a life, regardless, even though I do have serious trust issues, I've still had a wonderful time here.

3. I really am a Glaceon ;)

4. I really am sorry, for all the horrible thoughts, for all the wrong things I've done, for well, everything. I do hope you can forgive me, from the bottom of my frozen heart, I am sorry. To all staff, to all of GD Wiki and of course you,, I am sorry.

I will be less social on the wiki, yes, but I promise that I will come back to chat someday soon. Don't worry, it won't be like 2.0's 8 month coming soon. Lets just say that this Glaceon ain't leaving, this is not only a fact, it's a promise. 