Thread:ZOptic/@comment-5645428-20170301114424

Inspecting my previous comment, I understand that the tone of it may have been perceived as being somewhat imposing, and for that I apologise as that was not my intention. However, your response was surprising, reason being that I am perceiving it as a borderline personal attack on me. I decided to address this directly on your wall.

Firstly, I apologise for not having communicated my intentions in closing the boards clearly and will attempt to be more transparent in the future. As I mentioned, I do encourage that you point out any issues you have, as you have done.

Now, when you say that "the majority of users on here are pretty much afraid of you" this to me is completely unsubstantiated. I have no reason to believe this. From day one I have conducted myself respectfully and thoughtfully towards others. We all have our shortcomings, but to the point that my conduct has led more than half the population here to fear me? What? I don't dictate how people are required to act. I have never made hostile threats. I never block users without reason, furthermore I have always insisted on minimising the durations. I encourage discussion. I encourage communication. I encourage constructive criticism. No one has suggested that I have been alienating users, and if they did, I would act to rectify the situation immediately. But suggesting that no one says anything because I "give off the impression that [I am] the boss of the place who is not to be reckon with"? The only way I can come to this conclusion is if you mistake 'thorough explanation' with 'authoritarian demands'. That is misinterpretation on your behalf and has never been my intention, something I would have hoped you would have understood by now.

Then you claim that I have not been involved with the community very often. Understand that I am among those founders who this community as it does today would not have existed without. More recently, I have been busy, but do not discount the amount of behind-the-scenes work I put in while everyone is off socialising. Your add-on feature installation, site styling, template production, organisaiton, maintenance, dispute mediation, article editing, and occasional public chat. And you dare suggest I do not contribute in such a way that the community benefits? And not just our members, but the thousands of viewers also. "...how little regard [I] have for the community"? This is plain false. What motivated you to say this?

And you continue to criticise even my participation. I never said it was "[you and Nusdan's] fault" for the board dilemma. I do believe there were opportunities for you to speak up regarding my actions, whether you realised or not, but I have acknowledged my lack of communication. I will not sacrifice my own wellbeing or compromise my work schedule, staying up early in the morning just to facilitate live chats when you happen to be present. I have a life outside the wiki. I do not frequently have time to procrastinate or make small talk, that which constitutes most threads and chat content (that is why I am suggesting we try new strategies to encourage more meaningful discussion). When I am active, I mostly manage the wiki, usually while there is a minimal number of people in the chat. When I do join the chat, there will be likely be a reason, hoping to receive feedback on an update I have made or someone I would specifically like to talk to (I usually join when I see a staff member). Just because we meet each other infrequently and have concerns about recent events does not mean that I am not active or care any less about the community.

Your entire comment heavily undermines my ability as a staff member and as a thoughtful and considerate individual. It is disappointing to hear, ZOptic. 